Today
As recorded by Shaun Wong
I mediated for three hours on the first night when I was hospitalized on 7 December. I couldn’t sleep. Come the following night, I couldn’t sleep the whole night. I prayed the rosary, umpteen times. I felt I could pray in tongues. I’ve been diagnosed with pituitary gland bleeding. Last night, I suddenly heard my heart beat very pronounced. “Thud, thud, thud.” Every beat assured me that God is with me. Holy almighty Lord, thank you. “Why didn’t you approach me earlier James? I was waiting for you for 57 years.” Tear flowed freely, I gave thanks to everyone who helped me, known ways, unknown ways, hidden intentions. No words can describe it, except maybe Jesus. Y’know what, all my children are wonders, including my daughter in law. Bit worried by Jess though, maybe her new business is bothering her. Her yuppie world, Singapore, Singapore. Even a new born in this world has pressure. Pressure is not a way of living. Don’t chase them away… Give them real peace of mind. True peace of Christ to each and all of you who seek it. True peace comes to those who sincerely ask it. I got it man. Trust me, trust me, the Lord is almighty. Each mortal is a speck compared to the creation of God. God don’t ask me to question who you are. You are who you are, I am listening to every word, song, hymn and praise. Today, sad moments. Give the dying souls true focus and a leader please. As I speak now, how many deaths are occurring. Not my worry anyway.
How do I see myself? I’ve never thought about this until today. Eugene asked me. Are you able to put yourself away while speaking. Just consider what you are projecting. Have you ever laughed at yourself, the same mistakes you make. Do you worry a lot? I worry a lot. Well, I’m having a different outlook of life. My voice has changed because of my sickness, I’ve short term memory loss and want to make peace with my brothers and sisters whom I love very, very much. I called Anne and she said call Later. Sad, very sad. I told Eugene to give due respect to my brothers and sisters and handle any questions my relatives may have. I’ve forgiven my ‘enemies’, why should I worry why they have forgiven me. The most important people have forgiven me, Jesus, God, Marina T. The love of my life, you are a caring mother, filial daughter. I took you filialness as a excuse to hurt you, to flirt, to give the Devil to hold sway over me. I made peace with Shaun, Wei Ping, Eugene. I’ve made peace with Jesus. Call me anytime. I’ve learnt to meditate. In my sickness, I’ve mediated. I’ve a few tips about meditation. Avoid unnecessary voices, use ear plugs, eye masks, it should be done at night. Have a peaceful mind with a Rosary. Not necessarily rosary, respect other religions too. My own special way involves hearing my heart beat. Thud, thud, God Loves You. Are you ready to go to heaven, to return to the palm of his hand?
See the beauty of life. I saw waterfall and sunrise in Tan Tock Seng. I saw open skies, blue skies, dark clouds, the solar energy. My son sketched the view I had, my view and beauty of God in my life. Praise the Lord. Now I begin to understand why people use the word ‘Praise the Lord’. I lost my temper when I tried to make peace, to ask forgiveness from my brothers and sisters. Marina T smsed my sister, Margaret, asking her, “Your brother is in hospital, please contact him before he goes.” I called my brother Henry and he said that he didn’t recognize my voice. I said “Wong Kin Loy, I am in hospital and you are a prankster. Ok brother, I’m sorry I scolded you. Can you accept my apology?” “I accepted your apology” Henry said. I told Eugene to answer and screen my calls from my brothers and sisters.
Father, 84, another timebomb. If I come out of this alive, I will become an evangelist. I got someone in mind, my daughter-in-law. For the first time in my life, she has joined us in Novena. But religion cannot be forced. Three generations. I can already visualize the storks. Speech, character. Shaun. Jessica, at the moment I don’t know, but I’m proud of her. I know she is undergoing a lot of pressure, setting up a business, imaging the problems they are facing. They are architecture students, not even business students. Maybe someone should tell her a one-two day course of how to start a business. I hope she takes my advice on this, but at face value. I hope to visit her office after I get out of here. Jesus help me be with Marina T, my darling wife, we pray together everyday. I will have a showpiece altar, my daughter the designer, who will build and design.
Ha ha ha I am having short term memory loss. But if I go for an op and its successful, I must not be taken by that previous conman. But I have my own values and my own choices. Do not speak with hidden agendas. It is evil. If you do, don’t. There’s no such thing as a venial and mortal sin. Stop all this henceforth. Never never threaten a child, be specific with a child. When you scold a child, do not use words such as always, never, shut up. Hate the sin, but love the child. Never use the word I hate you on a child, you don’t mean it at all. Get to the point and say what you mean to say. You plan to fail when you fail to plan. Review your plans every month, 5 years, midterm, long term. I have many plans I want to become a consultant in building services. I’ve 35 years of experience with IBMEC, FSM, Building & Property Management. An arts student, I started relearning when I left the navy in 1990. My soul left me when I mediated last night, but I know that I will leave with an archangel, I’m entitled to one. (Here dad is interrupted by nurse to take medicine).
I’ve got so much to do, give me back my previous self, my true self, that Jesus wants me to walk. I know that if I focus and if I’ve done my job, I will be in Heaven. What is Heaven on earth, I know that I can find it.
Brother John Lau from SAC visited me today. Just ask him how angry I was, with my brothers and sisters, the important thing is God, Marina and my children. Hot Milo hasn’t tasted that nice before in front of a free open sky view. Light green grass, thick beautiful trees. People walking here and there. Raining. I’ve never seen such beauty in Singapore, even if it’s a bit cloudy. I saw sunrise in TTSH today. I saw my first sunrise having breakfast in bed. First sunrise, offered to me FOC. I saw a waterfall in TTSH. Sad. I’m afraid of water. I almost drowned in water at Tanjong Rambutan on a CNY. I almost drowned again at sea, on a paraglider. My real call came when I was diagnosed with a pituary ulcer in my brain. I’m at high risk to fall if I get aggregator.
Mum I love you from the bottom of my heart. I hurt you, the person I love the most. No words will describe the pain I caused you. Jesus has forgiven me, I believe you will forgive me. We walked the long journey of our marriage life together. Marina Tan I love you. No more social drinking, pubs, karaokes. Cut off all those people who go. Lets go for a nice holiday when I recover and am fit. I’m still not well yet. Ha, ha, ha. I believe now I am in good hands. Try to get the children to come and see me as often as possible. You will never know the time, second or hour. But don’t pressure them. Especially Jessica, I am concerned about her. I hope the rest don’t get jealous, if they are, I hope they have the courage to tell me. For me, nothing else matters to me, only Marina Tan my wife and Lord Jesus.
Name given Frankie James Wong Kin Kee, given to me by Charles Wong Kok Cheong, my son Shaun’s confirmation was Charles. Mother’s name was Chan Pek Leng, I saw her kissing my father, in an image in the trees. My mum died in 2005, can you imagine my loving wife Marina, keeps praying for her. Now my wife and I pray for them each night without fail.
I mediated for three hours on the first night when I was hospitalized on 7 December. I couldn’t sleep. Come the following night, I couldn’t sleep the whole night. I prayed the rosary, umpteen times. I felt I could pray in tongues. I’ve been diagnosed with pituitary gland bleeding. Last night, I suddenly heard my heart beat very pronounced. “Thud, thud, thud.” Every beat assured me that God is with me. Holy almighty Lord, thank you. “Why didn’t you approach me earlier James? I was waiting for you for 57 years.” Tear flowed freely, I gave thanks to everyone who helped me, known ways, unknown ways, hidden intentions. No words can describe it, except maybe Jesus. Y’know what, all my children are wonders, including my daughter in law. Bit worried by Jess though, maybe her new business is bothering her. Her yuppie world, Singapore, Singapore. Even a new born in this world has pressure. Pressure is not a way of living. Don’t chase them away… Give them real peace of mind. True peace of Christ to each and all of you who seek it. True peace comes to those who sincerely ask it. I got it man. Trust me, trust me, the Lord is almighty. Each mortal is a speck compared to the creation of God. God don’t ask me to question who you are. You are who you are, I am listening to every word, song, hymn and praise. Today, sad moments. Give the dying souls true focus and a leader please. As I speak now, how many deaths are occurring. Not my worry anyway.
How do I see myself? I’ve never thought about this until today. Eugene asked me. Are you able to put yourself away while speaking. Just consider what you are projecting. Have you ever laughed at yourself, the same mistakes you make. Do you worry a lot? I worry a lot. Well, I’m having a different outlook of life. My voice has changed because of my sickness, I’ve short term memory loss and want to make peace with my brothers and sisters whom I love very, very much. I called Anne and she said call Later. Sad, very sad. I told Eugene to give due respect to my brothers and sisters and handle any questions my relatives may have. I’ve forgiven my ‘enemies’, why should I worry why they have forgiven me. The most important people have forgiven me, Jesus, God, Marina T. The love of my life, you are a caring mother, filial daughter. I took you filialness as a excuse to hurt you, to flirt, to give the Devil to hold sway over me. I made peace with Shaun, Wei Ping, Eugene. I’ve made peace with Jesus. Call me anytime. I’ve learnt to meditate. In my sickness, I’ve mediated. I’ve a few tips about meditation. Avoid unnecessary voices, use ear plugs, eye masks, it should be done at night. Have a peaceful mind with a Rosary. Not necessarily rosary, respect other religions too. My own special way involves hearing my heart beat. Thud, thud, God Loves You. Are you ready to go to heaven, to return to the palm of his hand?
See the beauty of life. I saw waterfall and sunrise in Tan Tock Seng. I saw open skies, blue skies, dark clouds, the solar energy. My son sketched the view I had, my view and beauty of God in my life. Praise the Lord. Now I begin to understand why people use the word ‘Praise the Lord’. I lost my temper when I tried to make peace, to ask forgiveness from my brothers and sisters. Marina T smsed my sister, Margaret, asking her, “Your brother is in hospital, please contact him before he goes.” I called my brother Henry and he said that he didn’t recognize my voice. I said “Wong Kin Loy, I am in hospital and you are a prankster. Ok brother, I’m sorry I scolded you. Can you accept my apology?” “I accepted your apology” Henry said. I told Eugene to answer and screen my calls from my brothers and sisters.
Father, 84, another timebomb. If I come out of this alive, I will become an evangelist. I got someone in mind, my daughter-in-law. For the first time in my life, she has joined us in Novena. But religion cannot be forced. Three generations. I can already visualize the storks. Speech, character. Shaun. Jessica, at the moment I don’t know, but I’m proud of her. I know she is undergoing a lot of pressure, setting up a business, imaging the problems they are facing. They are architecture students, not even business students. Maybe someone should tell her a one-two day course of how to start a business. I hope she takes my advice on this, but at face value. I hope to visit her office after I get out of here. Jesus help me be with Marina T, my darling wife, we pray together everyday. I will have a showpiece altar, my daughter the designer, who will build and design.
Ha ha ha I am having short term memory loss. But if I go for an op and its successful, I must not be taken by that previous conman. But I have my own values and my own choices. Do not speak with hidden agendas. It is evil. If you do, don’t. There’s no such thing as a venial and mortal sin. Stop all this henceforth. Never never threaten a child, be specific with a child. When you scold a child, do not use words such as always, never, shut up. Hate the sin, but love the child. Never use the word I hate you on a child, you don’t mean it at all. Get to the point and say what you mean to say. You plan to fail when you fail to plan. Review your plans every month, 5 years, midterm, long term. I have many plans I want to become a consultant in building services. I’ve 35 years of experience with IBMEC, FSM, Building & Property Management. An arts student, I started relearning when I left the navy in 1990. My soul left me when I mediated last night, but I know that I will leave with an archangel, I’m entitled to one. (Here dad is interrupted by nurse to take medicine).
I’ve got so much to do, give me back my previous self, my true self, that Jesus wants me to walk. I know that if I focus and if I’ve done my job, I will be in Heaven. What is Heaven on earth, I know that I can find it.
Brother John Lau from SAC visited me today. Just ask him how angry I was, with my brothers and sisters, the important thing is God, Marina and my children. Hot Milo hasn’t tasted that nice before in front of a free open sky view. Light green grass, thick beautiful trees. People walking here and there. Raining. I’ve never seen such beauty in Singapore, even if it’s a bit cloudy. I saw sunrise in TTSH today. I saw my first sunrise having breakfast in bed. First sunrise, offered to me FOC. I saw a waterfall in TTSH. Sad. I’m afraid of water. I almost drowned in water at Tanjong Rambutan on a CNY. I almost drowned again at sea, on a paraglider. My real call came when I was diagnosed with a pituary ulcer in my brain. I’m at high risk to fall if I get aggregator.
Mum I love you from the bottom of my heart. I hurt you, the person I love the most. No words will describe the pain I caused you. Jesus has forgiven me, I believe you will forgive me. We walked the long journey of our marriage life together. Marina Tan I love you. No more social drinking, pubs, karaokes. Cut off all those people who go. Lets go for a nice holiday when I recover and am fit. I’m still not well yet. Ha, ha, ha. I believe now I am in good hands. Try to get the children to come and see me as often as possible. You will never know the time, second or hour. But don’t pressure them. Especially Jessica, I am concerned about her. I hope the rest don’t get jealous, if they are, I hope they have the courage to tell me. For me, nothing else matters to me, only Marina Tan my wife and Lord Jesus.
Name given Frankie James Wong Kin Kee, given to me by Charles Wong Kok Cheong, my son Shaun’s confirmation was Charles. Mother’s name was Chan Pek Leng, I saw her kissing my father, in an image in the trees. My mum died in 2005, can you imagine my loving wife Marina, keeps praying for her. Now my wife and I pray for them each night without fail.
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